Well that was embarassing..

that post below was pretty sad. I was in another state of mind! Kinda funny looking back! I knew I shouldn't have post it!!


Well, mr. VP of Famous Footwear is coming to our store, and I gotta get ready :)

Turning Point

I always promised myself I wouldn't vent on my blog when I was upset, Aunt Flo was in town, or emotional. Well, now that I am about to be all three I should stop no before It turns out ugly! *i just read through what you are about to read, and I kind of want to not post it. I hate posting such personal things online, but I feel like pushing post will help me. This isn't to make you feel sorry for me. Maybe it will help someone in the future to realize that they aren't alone, maybe a future daughter?*
Since, I have a hard time anyway expressing how I feel this is the easiest outlet.
I am stuck in a rut of insecurities. I am constantly knocking myself down which in turns doesn't make me happy with myself or the people I am around. It makes me not want to do anything, but watch movies all day long.
Then when I go to talk about it I can't. Ever since I started my birth control I have been on the verge of crying a lot. I start to talk, and then I am engulfed with tears.
The problem with this vicious cycle is I know how to get out of it, but yet I still find myself pulling up to McDonald's late at night, and hating the fact I am doing it. I watch TV all day instead of going to the gym. I keep my thoughts and feelings inside when I know I need to put them on the table. I go shopping, but hate that I can't fit into the clothes I want to wear. I hear people trying to help me, but yet it makes me more angry.
I promise this isn't depression. Just a rough patch. Heck, I will probably feel better in the morning. So much good is going on in my life I hate burdening people with all the little stupid stuff I am thinking.
 I guess the key is to get the negative out of my head. It's okay that I will have some curves I don't want on my wedding day. Its okay that the super cute shirt I want to look good on me doesn't. Its okay that I am not perfect. Its okay that I can't make everyone happy. It's okay if I am having a bad day. It's okay to be upset and have a "BF" Its actually healthy. It's okay I haven't read the Book of Mormon all the way through. It's okay if I am not perfect. It's okay if corporate comes to my work, and they find something that isn't right.
All of these things that I have mentioned above are controllable. I can lose weight, I can speak my mind, I can be happy. Just give me time. I have dealt with everything eternally for so long, that it is hard to just come out and say what is going on. Be patient with me, that is all I ask.
I am an emotional, changing, carefree, ditsy, and hormonal crazy(thanks birth control)

I lose track of what I truly am

 a loving, kind, beautiful, nice, patient, caring, pretty, friendly, hard working, nurturing sister, daughter, aunt, women and soon to be wife.

So, I see this as a TURNING POINT!

K before I go off on anything else, All I gotta say is girls night anyone??

Aren't ya just excited...

...to see my announcements??
Our engagement pictures turned out FANTASTIC!!! I am trying real hard to not post all of them so.. here is one more :)

Valentine's Day

I love my Valentine!!!

He brought me flowers, and chocolates!
We ate at California Pizza Kitchen, he did homework, and I fell asleep on the love sac. Then we cuddled.
Loving life!!

Oh and thanks for letting me take a picture, Trevor!!! I know how much you hate it! :) 

VOTE!!!!

Calling Male, and Female Alike, especially JEN BOUCHER!!
I need some help!!!
I have four different outfit choices for my engagement photos that are TOMORROW!!!
Trevor will be wearing a Tan suit, and what ever tie matches me. So what I need help with is what outfit to choose. Remember to be nice, I like them all so don't hate if you hate all of them. Just vote for the best of the worst if it comes down to that :) I am also proud of my self timing skills, sorry for the blurry!!
Ha ha Okay here it goes!!

From Left to Right: #1, #2, #3, #4

 Okay now go, Look to the sidebar and vote :)
THANK YOU!!!

Prime Example..

Okay,
We all know that I am not the brightest crayon in the box. I make some seriously ridiculous comments.
For instance:
Tyler, Trevor, (a few others) and myself were driving up to Park City I believe. We somehow got onto the conversation about Lakes. Tyler made a comment, "There are a bunch of bodies at the bottom of Lake Powell" and I asked, "oh dead ones?" and they continue to make fun of me for that one.

One time Trevor and I were in his car pulling up to his house. I saw Tyler's car, but not his. So I asked, "Where is your car? Oh wait we are in it"

Another one, I was getting out of Trevor's car, and told him that I am not always stupid. As I said that I ran into a tree branch.

The one I still feel stupid for was the one at work. A man came in and this is how the conversation went.
Steph: Hello, How are you today?
Man: Not too bad, how about yourself?
S: Just fine thank you.
M: I am glad someone know the difference between good, and fine.
Steph: *giggles*
I then try to say something else brilliant..
S: Well, I do try to get my grammar, do my grammar, I like to do my grammar well.
I had the hardest time trying to get that sentence correct. Stuttered a couple times. I am pretty sure it still came out wrong. The man just smiled, and walked away. No wonder I almost failed English.

I guess this make life more fun!!! I am glad I am this way. I laugh A LOT!!

Laughing :)

Go Go Go

I just wanted to drop in to write how life has been since "he put a ring on it" I can say it in three words, GO GO GO! If you are anything like me, I really enjoy going out and having fun, but I need my lazy days. Where I just relax, and enjoy cuddling and movies.
Its been crazy. From jumping around showing everyone we got engaged, to parties with friends. I don't think the Trevster and I have had one night just us. No one else. In a couple weeks. I hope I am not sounded selfish, but I kinda want one. SOON! After I get off of work tonight I have 4 days off. You should see the smile on my face right now!
Trevor starts school next week, and thats when it gets busy. He has quite the busy schedule, so I will try to enjoy having nights to myself every so often. Lifes getting busy, but I love it!!

On a bittersweet note, Our Grandma Wells passes away yesterday. She was really old, and was in pain. Its hard to lose someone, but glad to know she is in a better place. I have never met a lady with such a spunky attitude. She always made me feel so welcomed, and loved. I am grateful that I was able to meet her here in this life. Say Hi to my mommy for me, and I expect you to be in the temple with us when we get sealed!

ps. I really should start taking more pictures, make my blog a little more interesting!