I smile when i am sad.. I smile when I am mad.. I smile when I am scared Etc..

Hold on to your horses because this post is going to be a venting one.
Let me just clue everyone in on how Stephanie works. She doesn't like to ask for help. She doesn't like to disappoint. She laughs to hide tears. She tries to go with the flow. When she is upset don't give her a hug. She tries to be positive. She sees the good in everyone, and continuously gives them chances. Stay away from her during that time of month. She is stubborn. 
It is ridiculous, but it is who I am.
I actually have surprised a few people when I tell them all of my worries. One of my friends said, "whoa Steph, I had no clue you had self esteem issues!" First off what girl doesn't? I just hide things well I guess. Why walk around worrying, and being so down. Life is to be lived. If you make mistakes then that's when you need to learn from them right?
This whole conversation is coming up because someone close to me said that, "I am TOO much Happy go Lucky" It kinda hit a nerve. I had a friend once said that, "I don't understand, because I have such a perfect life!" ugh..That made me really mad! People don't know that I sometimes cry. People don't know that I worry way too much. But these people don't know these  things because I do it alone. My best friend left on a mission, and he was the one that I worried with and cried with. No one else.
Well, now that that is out. I want to change. I want to let people in. I want to ask for help. Crying is very healthy. I need to turn to the lord to answer question. This life is not meant to be handled by yourself. I just ask for people to be patient. I am a lot more sensitive then I look. I pretend to be tough. I'm not.

On a lighter note...
Some positive things about Stephanie..
She is caring, loving, funny, amazing eyes, cute smile, forgiving, she makes friends easily, fun, lights up a room, throws a killer party, random, spontaneous, and a whole lot more.
Thanks for letting me vent.
It's been great!!
Adios

SLOW DOWN!!!!

Dear Life,
Please just freeze!!
You are speeding by too fast that I can't decide what my next move is.. it just kinda happens! ha ha
Maybe its just I need to slow down? take a moment and breathe! Well.. i guess i will go buy a plane ticket to Hawaii so I can have a week of laying on a beach.
I work 40 hours a week!!! ouchie! I never realized how much 40 is until now! It's a lot! I wake up at 5:45 Am almost every day, and that is tough! It helps that the pay checks are nice, but I am afraid that I am going to get bored.. pretty fast.
I am going to school... nothing much to say here except.. I am glad that in two weeks I AM DONE!!!!
I am sorta kinda dating a boy. Okay we are dating, but its just complicated. He actually is a sweetheart! and to my family: i hope to bring him by sometime soon! It will happen when it happens. No worries we are just starting off, we haven't even talked about the future of our relationship. Basically we just eat ice cream, and laugh... kiss.. cuddle.. all of that early relationship crap!
Oh.. and i really need a vacation!!!!!!!
Maybe St. geezy sometime soon :)
Oh and I am now 20!!!!
That is the latest catch up for now!!!

Here is the new do!

Cute and SASSY!

GOOD NIGHT!

Funny Moment by Stephanie #2,347,341

Ha ha so do you ever just get done doing something, and then think about what you did and laugh. Well, this happens to me quite often.
Today, at work, I told a lady that i would call her back so that we could get her information set up to order her some contacts. I told her i would call sometime after 3. I was in a training session until 330 so i called her right after that. Well, she didn't pick up. So i left a message. It went something like this...

"Hey zoya, this is stephanie from 1800 contacts and i was just calling you back to set up the order. Well, if you could call us back at 1800 contacts that would be great. We then can send those contacts out to you. Thanks"

Okay really "call us back at 1800 contacts"?? I am an idiot. ha ha i laughed all the way home because frankly i can admit how awkward that probably sounded. funny.

Have a good day!!

I am in love...

...with my new JOB!!!!
Ha ha did I trick anyone?? I haven't quite gotten to that status with the current boy. :) ha ha

So.. it's true. i got the job. me, stephanie stohel, out of about 1,000 applications, I was narrowed down to 16. yes, i am that cool.
Well, I am not here to brag (maybe just a tad) so i will continue about what the past two days have been like.

8:00 AM- Arrive and start doing learning modules.FOREVER. Oh ya, and take a quiz after everyone.
8:30 AM- Learn about Rx, Vocab, and other lingo
9:15 AM- Laugh at our silly trainers, and order our lunch over the computer.
10:00 AM- fifteen minute break. This is the time that I go up to the Grille (located inside 1-800-contacts) and I partake of the FREE cereal. Today i had fruity pebbles, yesterday I had lucky charms. Tomorrow? Captain Crunch.
10:15 AM- Back to training and learning modules. During this time we ask questions, and are learning MORE and MORE
12:15 PM LUNCH TIME!!! for $2.00 that is taken out of my paycheck, I got a huge chicken wrap. The grille also includes free drinks, free fruit, and free bread.
12:45- PM Meet at training center, but then we went up to the call center. We then listend for an hour on another agents calls. It was fun. I can't wait to not be the "new kid." for some reason I just don't like the feeling of being not up to par.. weird? First day we met with our team and managers. My team is #1 in the center. BIG shoes to fill. My manager is sooo funny. I am excited about it.
2:00 PM Fifteen minute break. I went and got FREE juice. Then went to the bathroom. While at the bathroom, I walked in on a girl in my training class. In complete shock, i actually sat there for a second with out closing. I now feel like a creep. She was like, "oh sorry." and i said, "no, i am sorry!" (while the door was still open) Then I told her that we had bonded. i heard no laugh...
2:15 PM- you guessed it MORE modules. We are learning A TON. we have a test on it all tomorrow. open book. open notes. I will ace it!
3:15 PM- Write a short reflective writing to the trainers.
3:30 PM- GO HOME!!!
Side note.. tomorrow after work i am going to work out in the FREE onsight physical center. :)

so... yes i am in love with my job. I honestly can't wait to graduate to the call center. 3 1/2 more weeks!!!!
bye!

Bored on a Tuesday...

The things that happen when I get bored...
they include.
1. hair dye.
2. Loud Music
3. Doing my hair for no reason at all
4. Doing my make up for no reason at all
5. camera
6.blogging

All these things wrapped together get you... this...

America's Next Top Model?

No.. Deer in headlights?

ha ha i love that i can entertain myself!!

Would you like some contacts with that?

I am in my business attire, and am ready to get the job. I have an interview with 1-800 Contacts in an hour. Consider me you contacts person go to!!

I look good :)

These are my "happy/nervous" eyes

WISH ME LUCK!

"Hittin on dudes... Hard"

So.. Justine and I are dancing fools, and last night we put it to the test.
We had to go down to Provo because the SLC Studio 600 was..well.. Sketchy.
Well, you have to understand that when Justine and I go out we are silly. It's just us two. We dance how we want, and get a lot of people to stare in amazement of our awesomeness. We actually had quite a few group of guys that attempt to dance with us. Or you get that one brave soul that comes up, and we just stare at him like he is crazy. People just try so hard to be as cool as us. ha ha
It was a great time!! I love going out with my girl. It is always a good time!!!

We look fresh!